As close as strangers

Saturday was the 2nd time I saw T since we broke up.

We have a mutual group of common friends so it's inevitable that I will meet T again.

Awkwardness, strangeness. That feeling that we were once so close but now so unfamiliar. I don't believe that lovers could remain as friends.

On the way back, we were alone in the train as the others do not stay in the east. It didn't turn out as weird as I expected though. Found some topics to talk, as though what acquaintances would say to each other.

At least I feel more comfortable. But, no, i still can't think exlovers can be friends.

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Little India

Today, I had the sudden inspiration to have a walk around little India. Haha.

It was just a brief walk, about 15 minutes. It was somehow intimidating initially as I walked into one of the smaller lanes. Yet, as I walked along, I felt like smiling. There's this part in me that lights up as I see the bangla in their own groups, talking n smiling n paying no attetion to me a Chinese guy amongst them.

I guess some or most of them could just be around my age or perhaps even younger. They travelled all the way here, some at the hands of unscrupulous agents, to reach here. All they want is just a job for themselves n monies for their families back at home.

I m also one of those sgreans who can complain bout them at times, esp on buses etc. But gonna look at them with a softer light.

Happy national day :)

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Appraisal

Had my appraisal today n I am glad that it went well and smoothly.

And I realised that I have been in this line for nearly 3 yrs. It's amazing... How we all have transformed over the years, how much we have learned and matured over the years. The little seeds that we have planted are slowly blossoming into small trees.

Sometimes I still miss my uni days. No stress (nothing compared to work now, seriously!), no responsibility, not much to worry. But, we all know, we are no longer in that stage. We are all moving on in our life and as each day passes, we grow and gotta be strong to face more challenges.

Random thoughts. Lol.


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Mahjong

Had dinner n mahjong with my hall gang frds, namely pq, tan, cy n zq. Last minute plan, but it was great that everyone could make it so we could all catch up again!

Y m I updating my blog? Coz pq said we never update our blogs now! I said now I do via FB.

But, rethinking now, FB is too accessible for all now. Ppl I know well n not well are all on FB.

Maybe I should restick to blog. After all, blogging is made easier now with iPhone, like FB.

Shall see. :)

没那么简单

没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单
就能 去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感 觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一 杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每 个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易
才 会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经

想 念最伤心
但却最动心的记忆

stay focused

It's been about 3 weeks.

I've forgotten this part about external factors. E.g. comments from other people. Not from my side.

I dunno much details, but apparently my behaviour during the chalet does not go well with some people. I could only guess it's coz I was lazing around for most of it (when he's the organiser of it all), or a short shouting part (no harm intended), or just the fact that I dun like to show my affections too much in front of others.

So I replied him, let's not let what others say get between us. It's inevitable that people around us will comment, out of concern or whatever. But what others see is just the surface.

Just like when people hold hands and stick together all the time, how can others see if there is really any true love?

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Enjoyed the Mayday concert more than the chalet.
Fav part: when they performed 温柔.

And now, for the another once in a blue moon update =)

Work
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Peak is officially over! No more rushing deadlines and staying late, at least not until next year. And I expect a lot of clearing of TOIL and leave, equaling to roughly a 10 work-day month for each month until Dec. Lolx.

Last year, right after my peak ended, I went for my 3 week reservist, then LASIK a week after reservist. This year, no reservist. Wonder how the week after peak in office would be like.

No more claiming of TOIL now. That's kinda unmotivating for the next peak.

Friends
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Finally met up with pq, yk and cy after a 7-mth (or 1 yr?) hiatus. Not much gossip, just plain catching up. Had fun in KTV n dinner and 2nd dinner. Heartz!

The next time we meet up again, hopefully not the next year ah =P


(And then i realised, many other friends also long long time no meet le... sigh. This is what off peak is for)

Love
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Perhaps something is blooming.
Especially after the clubbing that night.

I prefer to take things one step at a time.
"愈慢愈美丽"