As close as strangers

Saturday was the 2nd time I saw T since we broke up.

We have a mutual group of common friends so it's inevitable that I will meet T again.

Awkwardness, strangeness. That feeling that we were once so close but now so unfamiliar. I don't believe that lovers could remain as friends.

On the way back, we were alone in the train as the others do not stay in the east. It didn't turn out as weird as I expected though. Found some topics to talk, as though what acquaintances would say to each other.

At least I feel more comfortable. But, no, i still can't think exlovers can be friends.

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Little India

Today, I had the sudden inspiration to have a walk around little India. Haha.

It was just a brief walk, about 15 minutes. It was somehow intimidating initially as I walked into one of the smaller lanes. Yet, as I walked along, I felt like smiling. There's this part in me that lights up as I see the bangla in their own groups, talking n smiling n paying no attetion to me a Chinese guy amongst them.

I guess some or most of them could just be around my age or perhaps even younger. They travelled all the way here, some at the hands of unscrupulous agents, to reach here. All they want is just a job for themselves n monies for their families back at home.

I m also one of those sgreans who can complain bout them at times, esp on buses etc. But gonna look at them with a softer light.

Happy national day :)

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Appraisal

Had my appraisal today n I am glad that it went well and smoothly.

And I realised that I have been in this line for nearly 3 yrs. It's amazing... How we all have transformed over the years, how much we have learned and matured over the years. The little seeds that we have planted are slowly blossoming into small trees.

Sometimes I still miss my uni days. No stress (nothing compared to work now, seriously!), no responsibility, not much to worry. But, we all know, we are no longer in that stage. We are all moving on in our life and as each day passes, we grow and gotta be strong to face more challenges.

Random thoughts. Lol.


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Mahjong

Had dinner n mahjong with my hall gang frds, namely pq, tan, cy n zq. Last minute plan, but it was great that everyone could make it so we could all catch up again!

Y m I updating my blog? Coz pq said we never update our blogs now! I said now I do via FB.

But, rethinking now, FB is too accessible for all now. Ppl I know well n not well are all on FB.

Maybe I should restick to blog. After all, blogging is made easier now with iPhone, like FB.

Shall see. :)

没那么简单

没那么简单
就能找到聊得来的伴
尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单
就能 去爱别的全不看
变得实际也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单一久也习惯
不用担心谁也不用被谁管

感 觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一 杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每 个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易
才 会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心曾经

想 念最伤心
但却最动心的记忆

stay focused

It's been about 3 weeks.

I've forgotten this part about external factors. E.g. comments from other people. Not from my side.

I dunno much details, but apparently my behaviour during the chalet does not go well with some people. I could only guess it's coz I was lazing around for most of it (when he's the organiser of it all), or a short shouting part (no harm intended), or just the fact that I dun like to show my affections too much in front of others.

So I replied him, let's not let what others say get between us. It's inevitable that people around us will comment, out of concern or whatever. But what others see is just the surface.

Just like when people hold hands and stick together all the time, how can others see if there is really any true love?

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Enjoyed the Mayday concert more than the chalet.
Fav part: when they performed 温柔.

And now, for the another once in a blue moon update =)

Work
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Peak is officially over! No more rushing deadlines and staying late, at least not until next year. And I expect a lot of clearing of TOIL and leave, equaling to roughly a 10 work-day month for each month until Dec. Lolx.

Last year, right after my peak ended, I went for my 3 week reservist, then LASIK a week after reservist. This year, no reservist. Wonder how the week after peak in office would be like.

No more claiming of TOIL now. That's kinda unmotivating for the next peak.

Friends
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Finally met up with pq, yk and cy after a 7-mth (or 1 yr?) hiatus. Not much gossip, just plain catching up. Had fun in KTV n dinner and 2nd dinner. Heartz!

The next time we meet up again, hopefully not the next year ah =P


(And then i realised, many other friends also long long time no meet le... sigh. This is what off peak is for)

Love
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Perhaps something is blooming.
Especially after the clubbing that night.

I prefer to take things one step at a time.
"愈慢愈美丽"

Jet planes flying

Sat night

They asked me in the evening if i wanted to ktv @ night.
I said I would be watching movie and didn't really commit.
They replied saying they will wait for me.

After the movie i decide not to go KTV and call him.
Couple of SMS exchanges

Sun morning

I thought the couple of SMSes above include him saying an OK for sun morning.
But still I was 50% expecting that they wun turn up.
And they didn't.

Lucky i have back up plan and brought my gym attire along.
But still pissed coz I could have gone to JB with others on another plan instead and I didn't go JB.
Not to mention i took a cab as I was afraid i would be late

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So could I call that as revenge? And what, quits now?

Kinda pissed still.

He has yet to reply my sun morning SMS, maybe he can't be bothered.
And i also can't be bothered already.

End May updates

I somehow decide i should revive this blog. Not revive as in, I will update everyday, but perhaps, once in a while.

Actually nowadays i dun really like my blog title, as in amazing don. It's as though i am amazing, and this blog is all about me. Well that was at least what I was thinking at one point of my life, but not nowadays. Coz I am suddenly reminded its the people around me who made me who I am.

So yeah, perhpas this blog will be more of remembering the good memories with people around me...

25 May 09:
Hoi's wedding @ Ritz Carlton
Met up with my NBS mates. Once in a while I see them, so to see them again and be able to crap is amazing! G changed career and what a major change. And we have a star, LT, @ our table!
The whole wedding itself was superbly grand, as big as my co's D&D, pity I dint have my cam with me for some reasons.

After that, KTV with gmg @ K Box. Hugz as i havent met up with them for some time.

26 May 09:
NCC with K. And he had a row with V.
Glad they have patched up by cell on Tue.

30 May 09:
Dan n Kel's Birthday @ Amara
Advance birthday celebration. We had fun playing some games and talking.
With alcohol. And someone got drunk and uttered some things which perhaps he has always wanted to say. Awkwardness. Recep came up.
Still, it was a fun time becoz there's no better place for so many ppl to be gathered in one place ^^ (Next: chalet for mass gathering again!)
Left @ 7+.... yawnz.

31 May 09
TZ and SQ's wedding @ Amara Sanctuary Sentosa
Congratz to the couple.
And its more of a mini gathering for us, the ey alumni. Gil, ST and YR + SH, Chris n Dan (diff tables). Caught up with them and good to crap crap crap. Cam-whoring. And 2/3 of the ppl are prob EY ppl since both bride and groom are in EY!
And oh, my virgin experience @ Club 21 bazaar. With self-control.

the saga

The AWARE saga is over and the old exco have claimed back rightfully what belongs to them =)

I have never agreed with the actions of the new exco, despite me being a Christian as well. I do not think what they did is right and I definitely do not share their views from the start. But well I am not in a position to judge them for what they did. I am just glad the old exco got back what they worked hard for.

Sidenote, being an acc grad, I am appalled at how the new mgt spends the funds! $90k for the counsel fees for Rajan & Tann! And how much more for the Suntec venue etc? And they said oh well, the funds generated from the new membership fees can cover the costs. This is a non-government organization! Do they think NGOs will have a spike in membership every month?

It has been hard on the old exco team for this period. Congratz to them again!

X'mas week!

X'mas week!

- Church had x'mas services on the weekend before x'mas and I helped to be an usher for all the services. Being an usher is more than just welcoming people in, it's really challenging too. And I got to know more people through these x'mas events.

But then, I ushered coz I ushered in the past, and I dun really find this my calling. Hmmm.

- Can u believe it... I continued to lose in MJ. Itchy hands! I surely hope 2009 will be a better year for my MJ. Still, great to meet up with my army buddies again.

- And I cooked rice and fried bee hoon for a potluck gathering. Ok my mum helped... haha. But I guess I more or less got the hang of it. It can be quite an enjoyment to cook!

- Went with V to Orchard road on x'mas day. They closed a stretch of orchard road and displayed some floats. Orchard road that day was flooded with fili maids, machiam another lucky plaze.

- Clearing my x'mas leave and new year leave, its time to plan my CNY leave. More to clear. Haha!

for photos, please go to facebook. ^^

gd news?

*keeping fingers crossed*

=)

Office X'mas deco

Our company had a x'mas tree decoration competition and 2 of my new colleagues were arrowed to take part in it. And another new colleague, also from my department, was also arrowed to decorate our level.

So, my neighbour and I were also roped in to help...

We decided on a theme from "From Rags to Riches" and that we would make the ornaments on the tree ourselves. Originally, we even thought of self-making the tree but that proves to be too troublesome.

The deadline was last Friday... and we procrastinated. Ha! Stayed until almost 11 on thurs night to finish it (and 1/3 of the entire level).



This is the x'mas that was finally finished last thursday! All the ornaments on the tree are self-made, including the star on top! All the snow there, are actually the leftovers from the hole-punchers!

Now, a closer look at the star...


The "X" was represented by the star, glittery and shimmery!


And, the team that put the tree together!



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One of my colleagues overheard in the lift, Tax Mgr A telling Tax Mgr B that the TAX tree sure lose to another tree by another department, coz that tree was more shiny and looks more glam (apparently?).

Well if Mgr A really bothers to open his eyes and look at the tree, he would have seen that our tree is made with heart and love.

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Still got 2/3s of our level left undecorated... sigh.

losing with the market

2008 is ending, and i should be glad it's ending!

1. I lost a few 100s bucks in the gym locker.

2. I can't recall winning any MJ or card games this year. Maybe 1?? I have already reduced my MJ frequency, but i should have also lost 200 or so... or more...

3. Hmmm i have my gym clothes in the gym recently. 1 adidas top n adidas pants.........

4. Lost my mp3 player in office. I think i left it on my desk while i went for lunch and it went missing after my lunch. .............

5. My credit instalment planS..........

6. The market now... need not say more...................

Well, the point of this post is, i shall abstain from any forms of gambling, until the cow year comes. Well, i should have done so long ago right, but who can resist the MJ tiles...

a*mei concert

A*Mei rulezzzz!!

Her concert @ the indoor stadium on 4th Oct was a blast! She was saying that we, the audience, were shouting and screaming all the time, not tired meh? But she herself was so energetic throughout the concert, how can we not be high??

Some memorable ones...

1. When she sang “后知后觉” in memory of Zhang Yu Sheng, i personally felt that she put her emotions most in this song.

2. She had some chicken rice and tow-geh before her performance... she was asking how to pronounce tow-geh and she had a whole plate of it to herself! Mel asked "Taiwan dun have beansprouts meh??"

3. She had the audience high with her fast songs, especially “3天3夜” at the end! How come people can sit down throughout her fast songs one?? "Bad Boy", “姐妹”, “牵手”, its time to dance!!

4. She sang Alicia Key's "If i ain't got you" and some Jap song, which were a Singapore special! Oh and an impromptu chorus of Stefanie's "Tee Oh Oh"!

5. She involved many SG in her concert e.g. kewei and lin qi yu as her backup vocals!

3. “维多利亚的秘密” had the intro with 4 hunky strippers stripping!! Haha! And they had this naughty "bed scene". Oh she was facing our side =PPPPPPP

I like where I was sitting, coz she faced our side quite often. Too bad we couldn't see her face clearly (2nd most exp liao)...



Me and mel, high and shagged after the concert! Erm maybe not that shagged since we still went somewhere to play after that... ^^



Dav had a little grouse though, coz he was waiting for "牵手", but the song that was performed was a less rock version.




Wil and Dav's frd also went for the concert! From what I saw, they should be having fun too!

Eh no, I didn't take any photos of the concert itself... It's in my memories!

hari raya!

I love public holidays! I get to sleep in, catch my TAR, ANTM and Survivor on youtube and go to the gym for a while. (oh btw, Selamat Hari Raya and Happy Children's Day!)

Speaking of gym, I see Mr Julxxx Hxx quite frequently in the gym lately. He's really quite tall and hunky. U know gyms have those TVs playing Ch 5, 8 and U, so I was wondering what if Julian happens to be working on one of those machines facing the TVs, and the TV just happens to be showing a show with him himself in it?

How would he feel? "Arrgh!! "? Or "I look so good!"? Or "My acting.... *sigh*" (oops...)

If it were me, I think I would be quite awkward to see myself on TV in public.

But then again, it will not happen to me -_-

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Sometimes I go to work via those premium bus services. I love it 'coz I get to sit and sleep to work, the bus is hardly crowded, it's very cool and it takes only about 30 - 40 minutes to reach my office.

And the bus captain is also very friendly. On one certain day...

Bus Captain: (smiling) Good morning everybody! Good moring! And sorry for yesterday ah, so sorry...

I was also on the bus the previous day leh, but I really have no idea what happened on the previous day. Too premium service, too confusing...

monday in office

It's easy to get hungry in office, so sometimes I'll just buy a loaf of bread and eat in the office at my own seat. And share with my neighbour.

So today I bought a loaf of bread and brought to work. And at work...

Neighbour: *takes out the bread on the table and eat*
Me: Wah so fast!

I thought she automatically open my bread and eat (we always very automatic one...), but when i look into my bag

*gasp*
Me: I thought u opened my bread!
N: What? No i bought it!
Me: *took out my bread* We bought the same one!



Gardenia Banana and Walnut bread!

And my neighbour's birthday is just 6 days after mine. Maybe that explains our similar taste!

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Later in the day, I was telling my neighbour that Kylie Minogue is coming to SG for concert.

She dun believe me when I told her how much the most expensive tix were going for.

U make a guess?

S$550!!!

That's called the DIVA pricing...

Traning

Was on external training last thurs and fri and also this thurs and fri. As understood from my colleagues who went for it previously, it's good. (Where got training not good one??)

Colleague: Shiok right?
Me: Yeah! Lunch break 1.5 hrs, got 2 15-min breaks with snacks and tea, go home at 4.30, can wear jeans and casual! And the questions they ask, more or less we know already...

But... honeymoon period ending soon =(

=.=.=.

Having bouts of diarrhoea these few days. I wonder if it's due to those China food... But I checked all the food labels, appear to be safe... Or maybe it's just something I ate.

=.=.=.

Got a call from a client who was questioning our bill. I just should not have put that dubious item in the first place. At least client was not that nasty, but made me spent time on it... Sigh. Wonder if it will be resolved when I return to the office on Monday. *prays*

Client management. Not easy.

guitar?

I learnt how to play the keyboard, I also know some guitar, but if i have to compare, I think my guitar skills are better than keyboard.

I know both instruments, but am a master of none.

I wanted to learn the keyboard/piano before, coz I thought it's very romantic to do so, especially when playing for someone. But now, I somehow prefer the guitar more. Maybe it has to do with how portable it is. I can bring it with me everywhere I go, more convenient than a keyboard. I can play it unplugged, I can play it standing, siting ot walking around, and I realise there is so much depth in guitar playing.

不同的感觉。

Just some thoughts.

People go

With the peak over, a typhoon of white letters swept across my dept. A SM, 2 seniors, 1 admin staff (for other reasons).

And I was one of the last to know coz I was not in office for the recent few weeks.

Oh well.